I’m from that place of tension,
straddling the worst and best,
of the East and the West.
Tiptoe-ing an insecure boundary between this and that,
and always The Other.
I’m from that place of tension,
where delicate fabrics are interwoven
by senseless gentle souls
and bargained and sold
at busy markets.
Dense with Arabic voices
and rolls of kaleidoscopic fabrics.
Where the smell of pungent coffee maunders through dusky dusty roads,
the harsh heat rising to
mingle with the noise of the country’s survivors
who battle with each other for attention.
See I’m from that place of tension,
that tastes like freshwater salmon
placed with curried okra side by side.
A table with Turkish sweets dripping with honey warm
whilst the rainfall outside continues to storm
across country lanes and cobbled streets.
Keeping its survivors huddled away dreaming of the very same heat
That I Escaped From
"Live your life and be free" she said.
As if freedom was not a luxury given on a silver spoon
sprinkled on the laps of the unworthy.
As if freedom was a normality
or the choice of many,
the granted rights of the majority.
Not recognizing that it was something to fight for certainly
still a luxury.
A concept others dreamed of,
shackled in personal slavery.
Freedom was a mission,
a demolition of the current state of mind.
Easy for some to say “be free”,
not recognizing the weight of those words that hang heavy.
I saw this video today and was struck by the truth of this song, struck by how relevent the lyrics still are, struck with how little has changed since it was first released. Yet in essence everything has changed, nothing is stagnant and people and places continue to evolve - wether for better or for worse. I think this is best examplified by the group the Black Eyed Peas themselves; look at how they started out and where they are now, the kind of music they produce and messages they promote. Just some food for thought..
25 Things To Do Before You Turn 25
1. Make peace with your parents. Whether you finally recognize that they actually have your best interests in mind or you forgive them for being flawed human beings, you can’t happily enter adulthood with that familial brand of resentment.
2. Kiss someone you think is out of your league; kiss models and med students and entrepreneurs with part-time lives in Dubai and don’t worry about if they’re going to call you afterward.
3. Minimize your passivity.
4. Work a service job to gain some understanding of how tipping works, how to keep your cool around assholes, how a few kind words can change someone’s day.
5. Recognize freedom as a 5:30 a.m. trip to the diner with a bunch of strangers you’ve just met.
6. Try not to beat yourself up over having obtained a ‘useless’ Bachelor’s Degree. Debt is hell, and things didn’t pan out quite like you expected, but you did get to go to college, and having a degree isn’t the worst thing in the world to have. We will figure this mess out, I think, probably; the point is you’re not worth less just because there hasn’t been an immediate pay off for going to school. Be patient, work with what you have, and remember that a lot of us are in this together.
7. If you’re employed in any capacity, open a savings account. You never know when you might be unemployed or in desperate need of getting away for a few days. Even $10 a week is $520 more a year than you would’ve had otherwise.
8. Make a habit of going outside, enjoying the light, relearning your friends, forgetting the internet.
9. Go on a 4-day, brunch-fueled bender.
10. Start a relationship with your crush by telling them that you want them. Directly. Like, look them in the face and say it to them. Say, I want you. I want to be with you.
11. Learn to say ‘no’ — to yourself. Don’t keep wearing high heels if you hate them; don’t keep smoking if you’re disgusted by the way you smell the morning after; stop wasting entire days on your couch if you’re going to complain about missing the sun.
12. Take time to revisit the places that made you who you are: the apartment you grew up in, your middle school, your hometown. These places may or may not be here forever; you definitely won’t be.
13. Find a hobby that makes being alone feel lovely and empowering and like something to look forward to.
14. Think you know yourself until you meet someone better than you.
15. Forget who you are, what your priorities are, and how a person should be.
16. Identify your fears and instead of letting them dictate your every move, find and talk to people who have overcome them. Don’t settle for experiencing .000002% of what the world has to offer because you’re afraid of getting on a plane.
17. Make a habit of cleaning up and letting go. Just because it fit at one point doesn’t mean you need to keep it forever — whether ‘it’ is your favorite pair of pants or your ex.
18. Stop hating yourself.
19. Go out and watch that movie, read that book, listen to that band you already lied about watching, reading, listening to.
20. Take advantage of health insurance while you have it.
21. Make a habit of telling people how you feel, whether it means writing a gushing fan-girl email to someone whose work you love or telling your boss why you deserve a raise.
22. Date someone who says, “I love you” first.
23. Leave the country under the premise of “finding yourself.” This will be unsuccessful. Places do not change people. Instead, do a lot of solo drinking, read a lot of books, have sex in dirty hostels, and come home when you start to miss it.
24. Suck it up and buy a Macbook Pro.
25. Quit that job that’s making you miserable, end the relationship that makes you act like a lunatic, lose the friend whose sole purpose in life is making you feel like you’re perpetually on the verge of vomiting. You’re young, you’re resilient, there are other jobs and relationships and friends if you’re patient and open.
Walked past this lovely quote today which was written by an english writer who was interestingly seeking exactly what the great sufi mystics were; gratitude, heart, sencerity, and a craving to connect with The Creator. Proof, if ever one was needed, that the human battle is the same the world over. It says;
"Thou who hast given me eyes to see,
And love this sight so fair.
Give me a heart to find out thee,
And read thee everywhere.”
To me this quote makes me reflect on how bitterness and anger and other negative emotions can make us turn on ourselves. You end up losing precious time and significant energy hating someone, being annoyed, being mad. Just let it go. Let the negativity go. So that you don’t end up “chewing” your spirit and losing yourself. Forgive in order to let your spirit soar.